The Thought Bubble: Counting Blessings

Here we go, just another conversation between me and my mom:

“I NEED that. Now.”

“No you don’t. And besides, who’s going to pay for it?”

I want something (that is not essential to my livelihood), and she tells me no. Honestly, I usually know when she is going to reject my plea for something I want but don’t really need, but I ask just to appease the little glimmer of hope in me that she’ll tell me yes.

Sometimes, if I continue to ask, my mom or dad will call me out for being unappreciative and taking everything I have for granted. They tell me to think about what I’m complaining about while so many people aren’t nearly as lucky as I am. I suppose being surrounded by some people who seem to have things I don’t makes me want more shiny, new gadgets. And so, I continued to be angry at my parents for not giving me what I want. That’s what my excuse used to be, but since then, it’s been changing to something else.

At late hours in the night (or early hours in the morning), I sit by my laptop and continuously watch Youtube videos to procrastinate from homework or sleep (although I seriously need to sleep). I came across this video, and I was given a big wake up call. In the video, I came across this very important saying: “count your blessings.”

It’s so simple and maybe a little bit cliché, but I don’t think people take enough time to do this; we’re too absorbed in everything that we’re lacking in to take a moment to see what they do have. I think about how I’m so lucky to have a roof over my head, abundant food, all the water I could drink, and a really wonderful education, whereas there are people elsewhere who don’t know where their next meal will come from. They have to fight with their lives just to receive an education.

When I compare my problems to what I’m complaining about, it’s materialistic and petty. I find that I used to compare myself to other people and I looked for what they had and what I was lacking in. I’m not sure what made me do so – maybe it’s in our natures to want more – but I think about how annoying it must be for my parents if anyone else.

Of course, there are still moments when I go back to my previous mindset and covet the materialistic goods unnecessary to my survival, but I often like to go back, rewatch that video, and focus on myself and what I’m lucky to have. I just reroot myself to being appreciative.