Behind the lights: the Hoscar experience

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Meilan Steimle

Noa Sasson (9) does a vertical split during her poi performance. Her act won the award for Best Solo Performance.

The air backstage is humid and humming with nervousness. Students cluster together, holding hands, uttering words of encouragement, or just standing alone, trying desperately to calm themselves. As the applause from the previous act subsides, the curtain opens, and the gym fades to silence save the low buzz of the air conditioner. Noa Sasson (9), her face shining with a thin sheen of perspiration, takes a deep breath and walks onstage.

A total of 19 acts performed at the 2014 annual HOSCARS. That means 19 rehearsed performances, 19 groups or individuals taking the stage to brave the audience’s judgement.

“I had to keep saying to myself, ‘just calm down and do it,’” said Noa, who showed the school poi, a type of dance involving swinging weights around the body in circular patterns. “My heart was beating really fast.”

Of the 19 acts shown, only seven were individuals, something that was a daunting prospect for some soloists.

“It was mildly terrifying,” said Naomi Molin (10), who did a hula dance. “It was my first time performing solo.” The edge of her lip quirks up in a half-smile. “That was new.”

The experience was intimidating even for those in groups.

“It was extremely nerve-racking standing there,” said Namrata Vakkalagadda (12), who sang Stars, by Grace Potter, with Kevin Xue (12). “It was first time not performing as part of a group. But once we started, we really got into the song and were able to forget the craziness of the audience.”

For some seniors, nervousness took a back seat to the nostalgia of their last Hoscars.

“I was awestruck when I looked up and saw 100% of the school,” Adithram Rengaramchandram (12) said. He and his friends performed a Bollywood mashup, winning the award for Best Dance Performance. “It felt like a dream.”

“It was an emotional experience for him,” Anika Gupta (12) said from beside him.

“It’s not every day that I get to be onstage with all of my closest friends,” Gaurav Kumar (12) said.

But for younger students, the HOSCARS represented a beginning, not a goodbye.

“I think it really helped me grow,” said Chris Hailey (9), who sang Imagine, by John Lennon, while accompanying himself on the piano.

“It was really scary,” said Noa, who went on to win the award for Best Solo Performance. “But awesome.”